DAY 14: All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become

training last night was killer

i hate it when i get too excited to do 150's, sprint them all at 100% then struggle through the rest of the sessions. my 100 reps yesterday were struggle town and the 50 reps were arguably worse.

but im very impressed with my 150's. to hit out that many, thats fast with walk backs was actually something to be very very proud of.

But it find its very hard training by myself.

very very hard.

Apparently, the 2 new girls turned up to squad training back home last night. so, there was Andrea, Bec, Bec and Bec. yep. the two new girls are both Bec's. and we already had a Bec. fun times ahead. its not going to be confusing at all.

i cant wait to get home and meet the new girls. i like working with younger girls because i like teaching people just how amazing they can be, to let them know, its ok to dream. and aim high. and believe. The juniors thrive off me. and im unsure why. all i do is encourage them and help them believe in themselves. am i really one of the only people in the world that do that?

Its quite flattering really, for people to have that much faith in my words. because at the end of the day, i never had anyone in my life as a junior to help me keep believing. And i think life would have been easier if i had. so if i can help these girls out. thats all i need out of this sport.

attitudes are contagious. make yours worth catching.

DAY 13: pain

THURSDAY

Yesterday, was recovery day.

and i thought, lets go to movie world.

recovery day my ass.

im as tired as ever.

cross of a speed session and a p0ol recovery session today

get a massage

and on with the job ahead.

people think my life is easy.

but they only see the good.

- travel everywhere

- dont have to work 12 hours a day

- the only thing i have to worry about it training.

but they dont see the bad

its a lonely sport

the pain and hard work that is required is far far underpaid

the pain of disappointment

of injuries

im in a near-constant state of lactic.

its not even funny how much pain im in even right now

this is not an easy life.

this is not a life i want for my kids even

its just my life.

thats all it is.

DAY 12: The few things that i do know

WEDNESDAY

heres a few things that i know:

1. To be the best, you have to work harder then everyone else

2 . To be the best, you need a network of people around you supporting you

3. To be the best, you have to have that x-factor that separates you from the rest.

4. To be the best, you must sacrifice most things in life.

5. To be the best you must be diligent.

6. To be the best, you must be a dreamer.

7. To be the best, you must be fearless and motivated.

8. To be the best, you must be focused and strong willed

9. To be the best, you must love what you do.

10. To be the best, you must be patient.

11. To be the best, you must believe.

but most importantly,

to be the best, you must first have the inexplicable desire to be the best.

DAY 11: Pain you cant even begin to understand

TUESDAY:

i really dont wanna sound up myself here or over confident or any of that jazz. But i am honestly starting to believe that Jason is one of the toughest coaches in Australia. and it would explain why since he has taken over our squad has had nothing but success and epic PB's.

I have worked with many well known coaches over the years. Ive seen various different programs, and heard various different stories. And while some of the sessions were hard. NONE seemed impossible as ours. When i read my program, my easiest sessions are harder then most peoples hard session. Some programs are actually laughable. One session i saw about 2 months ago, was one of the worst session ive ever seen, it was so easy and it produced one of the best athletes WA has, which really is a testament to the talent of that particular athlete, as hard work had little to do with it.

And i believe thats why i am a good athlete.

not only do i work hard,

and nothing is impossible for me at training,

but i have a coach to sets impossible sessions

i swear, im sure he goes, i think she can make 10 reps at 100% so ill set 15.

and me being as hard headed as i am

will ALWAYS push out the set number.

im so glad, i dont have a coach who just sets a program for everyone.

he personalises it. for each athlete.

because i am not like anyone else.

DAY 10: There's still time

MONDAY

hardest session on my life today

my calves cramped the whole session

but i ran threw it evertime

&& finished the session

in impressive form i might add.

there is still time left.

dont stop believing.

DAY NINE: perseverance

Look at a stone cutter, hammering away at his rock, perhaps a hundred times without as much as a crack showing in it. Yet at the hundred-and-first blow it will split in two, and I know it was not the last blow that did it, but all that had gone before.

i never realised how easy my success came until now.

but i know what ive done wrong.

but at the end of the day i have to want to fix my mistakes

before i can fix my results

and im not going to lie

the road im on has plenty of little parking spots i wanna park in.

but if park my car now

it will only take me longer to get to where i am going

and even if, right now, its not where i wanna go,

i know its eventually where i want to be

Success seems to be largely a matter of

hanging on after others have let go.

and my fingers are getting sore from holding on

only the strong survive. and im not sure i have what it takes.

im sick of wasting my life away on a dream that

might never be in reach

i feel time is running out but i cant let the fear

of the time it will take to accomplish something

stand in the way of doing it.

The time will pass anyway;

we might just as well put that passing time

to the best possible use

because at the end of the day, even if i miss this goal

i have to do all the work anyway to reach the next one.

difficult things take a long time,

impossible things a little longer.

and i may not be there yet,

but im closer than i was yesterday.

DAY EIGHT:RACE 2 and 3: the day my soul died.

I need something to believe in

coz i dont believe in myself

and im sick and tired

of getting no where

guess it'll all work out

- newton falkner

I can say with strong convictions
that today was the worse day of my athletic life to date
i dont even wanna talk about it.

Food poisoning doesnt help
but it also doesnt even come close
to excusing my darkest day.